My last blog of English class...well, I’m happy, and the reason is because is theI end of the a process. The English class was an epic travel, I don’t know how I’m here – in this level of English- because I believe that I’m not good trainee. I can read in this language and usually can understand the message, my problem is talk and listen. I feel embarrasment when I speak with others, I forget the words, then my mind is empty. In relation to listen and comprehension, I’m the worst, maybe to be hard of hearing is not help. The sound are continous for me, I can’t recognize the words, the conversations are very speedy. Friends and teachers advice me watch tv series or movies in English for resolve this problem. And I try, but my motivation is mayfly, for example: I tried to watch “the imitation game” movie, but I could understand all the interactions between the characteres of film so I was boring.
I suposse that I must follow the advice of my friends and teacher, but my deep problem is that I see learn English as a problem, an obligation. I think that this can be the reason of my fear or aversion, of my dislike for this language. Besides, my self-efficacy is zero. Always I think that I’m making bad the things. If I not resolve this, to learn English will be a hard task for me. For change this thinking a good way is to think in my future. Why?. I want to live in London. (Laugh) I want to study here someday (more laugh).
I know that I’m not the better student, I’m a procrastinator person, l learn more slowly than other, I know all this fact, BUT I have something for give at the human knowledge. I’m creator of literary and mathematical worlds, and this it must not death here. This is beginning of my change of point of view: the English language how a tool and not how a problem. In psychological term had a change since an extrinsic motivation till an intrinsic motivation.
Actually I don’t practice or use this language outside the English class. This is one reason because my slow learned. Although I have begun to read more papers. In fact, my English outside the English class is only to read papers. Even though I’m not brilliant learned, my spirit is try and try read papers in English. I know that the lot knowledge is in English. For reason I try and try, sometimes I feel to break my head.
The creation of blogs was a chance for to get self-confidence and practice the writing. Other area that I must practice.
Well, I hope not write other blog in a class English, because, I want to pass this subject. And I want too that all my classmates pass the English class.
Bye.
